"Your Journey"

This life changing transition your going through...I wish I had been there from the very beginning.. We went down two different paths, and our paths finally met at a crossroads...

I could not be happier to be going through this journey along side you, or at least being a part of your life watching you transform..one small day at a time...

This Transition you are going through will enable you to live the life millions can only Dream of....

From the day back in August when are paths crossed, I knew I had to set aside my selfishness, and let you transform into this amazing thing.

Because I knew I would have a sweet and wonderful friend, that would not always be there to call upon when I need a hug, or someone to talk to when I go through different chapters in my life...

So when your gone for weeks or months at a time, I am truly happy for you, and I try so very hard to not let you see what emotions accidentally come to surface...for example when that one tear comes rolling down my face... I so quickly wipe away, before you see it..

Last night I had left the television on while I tried to drift into a peaceful sleep, I woke quickly to what I thought was your voice, and your sweet face...I guess it was just a dream, for I woke up to a message from you saying....."I hope you have a great day"...

I want you to know that through this transition, you may not ever feel it...But I will always be standing behind you and holding your hand..and whispering encouraging words into your ear...

Bless be the day you came back into my life... For that.. I am thankful...

~~***Tammy Martina***~~

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Past..Present...Future

Disguised as an Angel you are... You came from a far....From my past you once belonged, but the timing was all wrong....

It takes losing each other to realize you belong to one another.... Friends are hard to find, and sometimes years have to go by just to wish you could rewind....

Now what I am trying to say to you is.......I hope my walk through the rest of my life have your footprints all over it, and mine all over yours....

So happy I have found you,, I could not imagine my life with out you in it...
Thank you for your friendship and your words of wisdom.......Because of you some people have said "You have changed" but The truth is....."I have finally found my self.......

Blessed to have you in my life........I have some days that go by, that the best thing to have happened was a message from you...

I adore you in my life, ~~**Your Friend,
Tammy Martina**~~

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Face to Face

As I woke I tried to scream, nothing came out. My voice was gone. I rolled out of the bed and ran to get a drink of water... As the water hits the back of my throat, I think of everything that could be causing my voice to be gone.. Not even a hum would come out....Never being so scared, I quickly got dressed and took a jog through the neighborhood, to get my mind off of this..

As I jog, My neighborhood seems to be all rearanged so differently, looks like a different town, where am I?? I fell to my knees, put my head down....Took a deep breath... Okay, What is going on... Five more deep breaths I opened my eyes..... Standing before me was a friend I had not seen for 13 years...

He took my hand, pulled me toward him, and hugged me like there was no tomorrow.I will never forget how he held me. He felt like an angle, so soft and warm.His voice made me melt. He smelled like heaven. He looked me in the eyes and said. "Come with me, I will tell you why your world seems so different today." So eager to hear his words I followed him, did not care where we were going..

As we sat under the weaping willow Tree, He put his soft hand on my cheek and said " Don't you remember praying last night? You prayed to run into someone who would change your life for ever. To give you an inspiration no one will ever take away." I looked right into his eyes and softly said,.......Yes

As he was leaving, he said. "Now remember your world, your thougths, How you view life, and all that surrounds you, will Never be the same.. It's up to you to keep it this way, or let it all go back the way it was...Before you choose... Take a look around. What may come of this might be more than you can handle..But I know by the look in your eyes, you have finally come to where you have always wanted to be...."

When I could not see him anymore, I cried harder than I had ever cried in my life. I wiped my tears and said..... That was not the last time I will see him...

Tammy Martina Burks

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"Through the Crowd"

I saw your face through the crowd today. It made me smile so big. Yet my heart hurt.

As I heard your voice, tears just dripped down my face. Scared you would see me, I wiped them quickly away.

Have I ever told you, that you have the most amazing voice I have ever heard? When I hear your voice, it takes my breath away.

I watched a movie today, It reminded me so much of you, it was a about song writing. At the end of the movie I just cried and cried, wishing I could hold you one more time...

Through the crowd I whispered softly...I miss you and everything about you. I know you did not hear me, I just hoped somehow I'd get your attention and you would look over at me with your sweet sweet grin, and put your hand out for me.

I know life is not always rainbows and butterflies, but I do wish in this case it was. There is something so special about you.

When I'm with you a joy I have never known fills my heart. You make me laugh so hard, I can barley recover before you make me laugh again... Not many people have that affect on me..

As the crowd dissapears, I walk toward you with fear, scared you would pretend you did not even know me. As I came closer I saw many people coming up to talk with you.

While you were occupied with that, I slipped a letter in your coat pocket. It read: I think about you every day wondering where you are. I know life for you gets a little hectic going from town to town, and state to state, as you become more successful. I also want you to know how proud of you I am.. And I wanted to thank you for the all the inspiration, you gave me... Thank you...

I wish you joy and happiness...When we meet again. I promise to hold you and tell you to your face, how much I have missed you. Till we meet again.

Take care, and be who you are, for that is what they all love.... Tams

"Crying"

My Thoughts

A Cry from deep within me has been held back for some time. How long can I hold it in? It's painful, and I want to let it out... I'm scared who will see me. For someone to see my weakness, is not something I am ready for. I so many times pretend to be so strong... Stronger than I am...

When Life seems to get out of control, naturally I start to control other parts of my life. I want to control everything, from what I eat to who will love me.. For most this is impossible, and everything happens for a reason.. I know that.

The guy I adore most in this world, doesn't even know...Our lives are so different.. it is so true... I do not want to admit it...

This makes me feel out of control sometimes.. and on the outside everything looks normal.. but...on the inside it's like a volcano. This is not something I want people to see.

I have a pride that somewhat overwhelms me, most parts of my life...When I think about him I melt, and I take a while to recover from the thoughts of him. The way he touches me. The softness of his sweet lips, how he looks and sounds like an angel when he talks softly to me. These thoughts are what puts me to sleep at night.. These thoughts are also my dreams!

This is what hurts me on the inside...I want to cry.. I think maybe, if I put my pride on a shelf and let it all go, I'll feel so much better, and I can put my emotions into words. I will become the person who I might not want to be. Some one who lets people see their weakness.

What I want, I may never get. Who I want may never even notice me.

I feel the cry it's on the edge of my cliff waiting to fall.. This is the cry that puts you down on your knees, and your hands over your face, the cry, that between breaths, you feel like you are not getting air...

The kind of cry, when your done, you shutter for some time, but what you are feeling is an emotion you have yet been able to put into words, no matter how hard you try...

After my long hard cry, in between the shutters I wipe away the tears so I can see. Memories appear, in my mind. The first time I heard his sweet voice, and the first time he kissed my lips. It's all still there...I just feel so much better...

I have decided that crying...actually feels good.. When it is over, and after the shutters, there is a feeling of relief. It still does not change anything, but it is a release.. A release from all the hurt, and all the things you cannot control.

A good cry,, once in awhile....is not all that bad...

"Trust Me"

Have you ever wondered if you can trust someone? You really never know.. Even if they say.."You can trust me".....

What I am saying right now is. I.. with all my heart and soul and everything I hold within me... I want you to know you can trust me.. You can trust me with your secrets. You can trust I will never gossip about you, and trust that I care for you for Who you are, Not what you are...

If you ever need a shoulder to cry on...or just a listening ear, you better believe I will be right here for you..If You need an opinion I will give you my very best..

There has been times, I have looked into your eyes and almost seen your soul. You are full of wonderful and amazing things. It's not often someone comes along with the determination and Soul that you have. I am honored to be your friend.

You don't know this. But the last time you were here, I held you through the night and I wondered if you felt it. I knew you would soon be gone, so I held you tighter and whispered in your ear. "I love it when you are here" and when you woke and said your goodbyes I held in a really big cry. So I said my good bye.

I cherished every moment we had together...And I loved the windy weather. Until we meet again... Trust me... I am a true true Friend.. Never will I dishonor you. "It's not often a hero comes along" I promise you, you will never walk alone.

A friend to you forever,
~*Tammy*~