I Hope this letter Reaches you.....

As I lay here… I am wondering what this day will bring…Very thankful for one more day… To love…to cherish all those in my life!



I have had the honor of meeting some wonderful people in my life, and I do not know what I would do If I lost some of them…one in Particular…for losing him, would be a steak in my heart…



I cannot fully tell you how difficult this is…To let him in on my Secret…that I wake up thinking of him, and I go do bed thinking of him, would be un-heard of…and to be honest.. I cannot tell anyone this secret…I will have to hold it…forever



So what I am going to do is write a letter and put it in a bottle send it down the ocean…and hope…and pray it reaches him…. It would say something like this…..



…..Dear…Mr. Wonderful…



As I wake in the morning with the beautiful sun and warmth of the day, I wish you were lying next to me, so that I could lean over and kiss you good morning, and ask if you slept well…



As I step into the shower, while washing my hair, I wish you were breathing down my neck as you wash my back..and turn around so that I can do the same to you!!





As I go through the day…when something interesting happens or I need advice… I look over at my phone looking at your number and knowing I cannot push the button…This hurt can be unbearable at times, and I have to turn away before someone looks over at me and sees the tears trickling down my face…. And asks me that dreaded question…”why are you crying Tammy”



….and as the day turns into night, when I want to grab, you…hold you tight and feel safe in your arms….and go to sleep with my head on your chest…reality hits me hard, and I realize I will be going to bed all alone….with only thoughts of you, and to know when I wake…the other side of the bed will be empty as it always…and I’ll have to face yet another day….wanting….wishing….hoping…praying…that I could rewind time, and take you when I had the chance…truly…my only regret!



What I want you to know…is…We belong to one another, just missed fate…and that I can, and I am living with…what my ending is…..you at a distance…



Just remember when you need someone… I’ll always be holding your hand, and tip toeing to reach your ear.. to whisper in your ear…”It’ll be okay baby”…..



I’ll end this letter…as I wipe away the tears….I hope this reaches you…

Yours truly,

And forever

*~*Tammy*~*