"You are the Tattoo on my Soul"

One more day has passed..that I was unable to see your sweet face…Feels like I have been waiting an entire decade for your return.. Although it has not been that long..I’ve lost time..

The phone rang today..I said hello about 5 times..and there was no one at the other end.. I was worried, it might be you telling me.. you were not coming home to me.. that you found another life, and you wanted me to pretend as if you never existed!!

I fell to my knees..I believe I cried for what felt like two hours…I screamed out so loud..I know the neighbors across the way heard me.. when I wiped the last trinkling tear away..I started to stand.. and all the energy left my entire body..

So for the time you are away.... I am at war…War because I am fighting the thoughts within my heart..that say he may never return…that say…He was never mine to begin with.. I am scared.. I will lose you before I even get the chance to make you fall in love with me…

I hope I am wrong… and I pray you forgive me for these thoughts…for I have never felt this way in my entire life…it’s so powerful at times.. it takes my breath away…and when it returns..tears start to flow… and nothing I do.. makes it subside..


I keep thinking of the walls I had that surrounded me for so long…all it took was your voice.. and they came crashing down…No one..in all my years..could have said one thing to make my walls fall down around me…No matter how hard they tried!!

….and this…this…is only the beginning? These new feelings….are more amazing than I have ever imagined.. they are better than any fairy tale movie I have seen……even better than Cinderella..and That story has made even the strongest at heart shed a tear…

No matter what happens…I just want you….to know… you are forever in my heart…you are the Tattoo on my soul…that will never go away…


Some are brought into your life.. just to pass..and to be forever forgotten.. but there are those who belong to you.. and that..is when you have a Mark…a Mark of LOVE..a mark of LIFE..the TATTOO on your soul.. that says….. “A Higher Power…HAD to know what they were THINKING..”

Forever together.. if not in physical Presence…..A mark on my soul you will forever be!!

Yours truly, and forever,
Tammy Martina